Everything You Want

Somewhere there's speaking
It's already coming in
Oh and it's rising at the back of your mind
You never could get it
Unless you were fed it
Now you're here and you don't know why 

But under skinned knees and the skid marks
Past the places where you used to learn
You howl and listen
Listen and wait for the
Echoes of angels who won't return

He's everything you want
He's everything you need
He's everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
He says all the right things
At exactly the right time
But he means nothing to you
And you don't know why 

You're waiting for someone
To put you together
You're waiting for someone to push you away
There's always another wound to discover
There's always something more you wish he'd say 

He's everything you want
He's everything you need
He's everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
He says all the right things
At exactly the right time
But he means nothing to you
And you don't know why 

But you'll just sit tight
And watch it unwind
It's only what you're asking for
And you'll be just fine
With all of your time
It's only what you're waiting for 

Out of the island
Into the highway
Past the places where you might have turned
You never did notice
But you still hide away
The anger of angels who won't return 

He's everything you want
He's everything you need
He's everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
He says all the right things
At exactly the right time
But he means nothing to you
And you don't know why I am everything you want

I am everything you need
I am everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
I say all the right things
At exactly the right time
But I mean nothing to you and I don't know why
And I don't know why
Why
I don't know 

Soul Mates

Mates that are the one that we confide.

Souls are spirits with in ourself.

So does the meaning soul mates mean the spirits we trust?

How do we understand that term?

Do we always know the name of our soul mates or do we run into them?

I kinda believe in the term soul mates.

I trust a few and a selected few.

I dont trust spirits.

Will we all find our "soul mates" or walk this earth going from one to another?

I have

I have been happy and sad.

I have been in relationships.

I have had my heart broken.

I have been in good relatioships and bad.

I have been in and out of love.

I have been searching for the one.

The one I have been looking for has found me.

I have you to thank.

Thanks 

One day

One day I am thinking it is time to move on.

One girl can change that and you have.

It takes one to love one.

One person to change my life and I am glad it was you.

One phone call to realize that you are the one I need.

One  just one to make me realize that my place is with you.

Holding Back (This goes out to a friend of mine, that seems like i knew my whole life)

Feeling and rage that are held deep within can destory someone that is bright as you.

How can one hold as much stuff as you can.

You have people that will do anything for you.

Holding back will only cause you to hurt the people that you love and care most for.

Take it from a person that knows.

I will always have a way to talk to you no matter what.

Problems are always hiding and lurking around every wall.

You need to understand that you have people that care for you and love you.

They only want to help.

Holding back is a painful game and it only gets worst.

Please talk, it will help the pain die down.

Lovers and Love ones

Lovers come and go but love ones will stay and fight back all the nightmares and welcome all dreams.

Lovers are great but can never come close to love ones.

Lovers will help you relax.

Love ones will take you worries and kick them out the door.

Lovers will say everything just to make you feel good but Love ones will stop everything that they are doing and let you talk your heart out.

Lovers will walk out on you when things get a little rough and want to come back later.

Love ones will stand at your door till everything is better.

Lovers are usually short terms.

Love ones will never leave you. They are here to stay forever.

And for my love ones out there Thanks for everything. This poem is for you. I will never leave you for anything.

Don't say goodbye

Jimmy was walking to school one day. His cousin pulls up and tells him to get in. No questions asked Jimmy jumps in. They pull up to St. Jones hospital. His cousin gets out and starts running towards the doors. As Jimmy is rushing to the doors questions are popping 

in and out of his head but there is no time for questions only answers. Jimmy finally finds his cousin. The room that his cousin ran into was the same 

one that his mom was in a few months back. On the bed is his mom, beside the bed was his cousin crying. His mom ask Jimmy to come here and sit next 

to her. His mom looks up at him and said " Son, I have always been truthful to you and there is no reason to stop. I am dieing and there is nothing 

the doctors can do." "No, you are not going to die when you get better we are going to go to the swing we made. You are not leaving me, no goodbye 

only later." Rushing out through the doors and back to the car weeping the tears.

It has been 20 years since that awful day in room 209. Jimmy is happyily married and he is driving to the hospital to go see his wife. The doctors 

are already standing at the doors waiting for him. The doctor looks at him and said " You wife is right this way." Down the hall and to the left

 they went. "Sorry for being late hun, traffic was backup." The doctor said "The baby is coming." After a day of unbearable pain the baby is finally 

here. The doctor asks Jimmy to step outside for a second. Doctor is trying to find the words to tell Jimmy that his wife wont make it. Finally the 

doctor said "Sir, good news is your baby is fine, but on the other hand your wife wont make it." A nurse pokes her head out of the door and tells the

 doctor that she has past way. Jimmy rushs towards the door and yells "No this cant end like this not goodbyes no...no. Why god you have to take her 

why?" Since those years have past Jimmy has never been able to say those words "Dont say goodbye".

Should I hang on or let go?

As I am staring down death wondering to myself should I hang on or let go.

Death telling me to let go it is not worth it.

I seem to want to hang on more.

But why?

I can watch over everyone from above.

Why stay so more pain and suffering can enter my life?

Memories have rushed to my head like a flash of light.

So many people come to me for help.

I have to be a jackass to leave them.

Those memories have made me lose control of how long I can last.

Some how I reached for a hand and pull myself up.

Staying for a bit longer 

but how much longer will Death hide in the shadows?

I will miss you

My path seems to have been chosen.

Hate to say but it seems that you are not in it. Every talk we have had has turned us away from another.

 I will miss you. With every breath I draw seems to pull us farther away.

 Why? Why did I do this to myself? How could have this happen without one of us seeing it.

 I want to try get back what we lost. My world seems to have come to an end. Sickness without you. I will miss you.

 Do you want me to go? All you need to do is say the words. Path is closing I need to know if you want to test the walls or you want to back away. I will miss you.

 All the good times we have had seem to push the walls back. I want you to follow your heart not your head.

 Heart is for love. Head is for everything else. What is your choice? I will miss you.  

My Storm

You are the keeper of my mind.

When I am asleep you are the one that awakes me.

The weather might be bad outside but the sun comes out when I see you.

The storm is getting stronger and you are nowhere to be found.

The storm is closer my life is ending with every second that goes by.

Knowing that the storm is only in my head it feels likes the storm is near.

I drop to my knees yelling your name to come and save me from this.

Save me from my mind.

The time has come for me to standby and let my faith run its course.

Knowing that I am suppose to direct my own faith I let you run it for me.

With a blink of an eye my faith has ran its course and I see golden gates.

Stairs that seems to go on forever.

This walk seems to be a life time.

Every step that take I get a image of you.

My mind cant take it.

I awake my heart is racin.

It was only a dream thank God it was.

Did not want to leave you without telling you that I cant stand being without you.

I still stand alone with my storm to face. 

One day

One day you will want to see me and I will turn around.

One day you will want to talk and I will hang up.

One day you will want to cry and I wont be there.

One day you want to complain and I will tell you to call your boyfriend.

One day you will just want to run away and I will already be gone.

One day you will be sick and I will not come over and cheer you up.

One day I will die and finally be able to rest.

One day I will move on

Till then I will wait for that one day

My Love

Pitch black is all I can see,waiting for time to go by so I can awake.

Every time I see you I want to tell you how much I need and care for you.

Everytime I think about talking to you it is like my brain dumps everything.

My mind is clear, you are in front of me not knowing what to say I blurt

something out, you look at me like I just did the dumbest stunt ever.

Trying to recall what I said so hopefully I can rephase it.

Knowing I will have to make it up later. I am wearing my heart on my sleeves. 

No cule why my only guess is that I show strong emotions at times. 

Trying to stop showing so much emotions I feel like I am dying. 

Can hardly sleep every night because you are always on my mind. 

No wonder I feel like I am dying, my emotions are trying to tell me that you are 

the best thing that has happen to me. 

I can not stand it no more, seeing you, thinking about you, and wishing that  

you are safe.

My love is close.

What is life to you?

have you ever taken a break from what ever you are doing and thought of that.

for the people that is in your life what would you do for them?

would you actually take a bullet for your best friend? would he/she do the same?

how far are you willing to go to get the one?

let me give yall some answers that i have come up with then tell me yours.

life to mean is helping us and pushing us to learn to strive for something we might want. it is teaching us to be a better and stronger individual. it shows us how to and how to be loved.

I would do anyhthing and everything for the people in my life.

i would take a thousand bullets for my best friends and who actually knows if they even would take one for me i know one would

I cant even start to explain it ..... that is even if there is one for me

Regrets

Regrets are probelms that make think you what if.

What if I did this instead of this.

Life will have some regrets in it.

It is all depends on how you as the "master of your realm" pick the roadway you 

will travel.

Some people will chose the brighter and the easiest road.

A very few people will go down the darker and harder road.

Few the people that take the harder way have learn from the past that the 

easiest way may not be the best way to go.

Life with regrets is like life with just one choice.

Life would be plain old and boring.

Regrets help people more then you would think.

The people learn to make better and wiser choices then just to look and then 

decide.

Regrets are good for us even though we dont look at them as a good thing they do 

help.

You

Raining harder then ever since the last time I saw you.

The pain I feel is unbearable.

Seeing you smile makes me want to try and forget all 

the pain and suffering that I have felt.

Your voices makes me drop to my knees.

Your name kills me.

Walking past you makes me lose my breathe.

Heart racing when you are in my head.

How can a person have this much power.

Dependent on you.

I need you.

You can I can't

I cant go a day without thinking about you.

You can have a day without me in your head.

I cant have a good day without talking to you.

You can just talk to your friends and end up with a smile on your face.

I cant stop looking at my screen wondering if you are going to text.

You can leave your phone without worrying.

I cant help if I start to worry about you.

You can just say to yourself that I am ok.

I cant wait till I see you again.

You can wait till the next time you see me.

I cant sleep without you.

You can go a whole night without me.

Love and Believe

Love is like a wall.

A wall so high that most people climb forever and never get no where.

The few of us that actually made it to the top can now rest at ease

knowing they have conquer love and found thier one.

Then there are some people that decide to wait and let thier love 

climb it to find them.

But how can we as human learn the sercets to this walls.

We need some one to guide us up the wall.

But who is actually going to help some one with thier love problem.

No one will you have to learn yourself and tell yourself that it 

will be worth it.

Believe in yourself and you will able to conquer the most hurtful 

relationship.

Believe that you will find your perfect match no matter the cost

nor trouble.

It will happen you just got to believe.

Last Chance

One chance to love you.

One chance to be there.

One chance to always need you.

One chance to be the best friend and more.

One chance to always mean what I am promise.

One chance to grow up with you.

One chance to be yours and yours only.

One chance to be the one you need for always and forever.

This is my chance my last chance.

Disappointments

I am a disappointment to some people and whatever.

But if they were the people that say they are.

They would give me 100% backup.

Not backup on my life.

They would want me to be happy not depress.

You know what I AM WHAT I AM. 

Death

Death is all around us.

Lurking in our shadows.

Feeding on our pain and suffering.

Waiting till we cant deal with the pain anymore.

He might just get tried and touch you.

We need to realize that any day could be the day we wont see

The loves ones we care the most about.

When is the pain powerful enough to say you want to end your life.

The answer is never.

Never is the the only answer.

We cant chose when we live and when we die that is a matter 

that God and Death himself decide when we are born.

Death is now my bestfriend he holds my life as God does.

I will walk till Death taps me on the shoulder.

Death my bestfriend.

Friends

We all need them.

We all have them.

Calls in the middle of night.

A shoulder to cry on when life is unbearable.

A laugh that seems to be forever.

A person to hang out with when nothing else is needed to be done.

A person to tell your darkest secrect to.

A person that will be around when you need him/her is a friend.

What

What really lasts forever.

Love is a great example.

It shows compassion, kindness, and care.

How long does love last?

Rest of the night or forever?

As most people say love is something that is unexplainable.

A desire that one discovers.

What time in our life do we actually try and look for it?

Do we even find it when we are ready?

Or does it just appear when we need it the most?

What is the true meaning of love?

What does it mean to be loved and to get out love?

Most imporant what should you do when you find your love and 

it slips away like flowers petals in the wind.

Promises

Promise me you wont leave.

Promise me you will not break my heart.

Promise me you will be there.

Promise me will be mine forever.

Promise me that you will never promise me anything for a life time.

Promises are like rules that are made to be broken.

Dont promise anything you cant keep.

Directions

What pathway?

Left or right?

What way should I go.

Right will take me back to where we were.

Left would take me away from the problems and pain.

Should I really run and hide because I cant stop life from happening?

Or should I become a man and learn that my past will never leave?

At Peace

I am at peace with the world.

I am at peace with my firends and family.

I am at peace with my life.

I am not at peace with the choices that I have made.

Life is coming to the end and I am still not at peace fully.

What to do?

Should I go for everything I want or watch it grow and become happy?

Should i forget about the choices and become peaceful at one time?

Or should I become what I want to become and lose my past?

Feelings of Love

I have feelings of love for the girl I see.

Does she love me too, what does she think of me?

I wish I could tell her she makes me whole, but I'm afraid to say

what's deep in my soul.

I don't want to lose her, for I would be alone,

and some days I just can't wait to see her text messages to me.

She does certain things to make me feel loved,

some days she wants to be alone and my heart is shoved.

I want to feel as though I am her guardian,

the one she can come to when things get hard or even when things get confusing.

I will always be there to help her along,

and before we met I wasn't as strong.

I wish I could tell her what I feel inside,

but I'm afraid of what she'll say, how she'll act on the outside.